One star was a lonely shining
star that burned everything near it. Despite how big it looked, it was
in actuality mostly gas. Another star that stood far away was only the
light it gave off long ago, which then reached all the way to Earth. And
then he would learn how t lived from far far away. As Furufumi learned
more, he took on more of an interest in them. Before long, he started
looking forward to those times he spent with Mononobe talking about the
stars.
One night as he and Mononobe day
together with their books, Furufumi started talking about himself. He
talked about his worries that he couldn’t tell anyone else. He talked
about the regrets he kept hiding. Mononobe would sit there without
saying anything as he listened to him. He didn’t say whether anything
was good or bad, he just got to know him more. And Furufumi remembers
this with happy fondness.
One night under
the starry sky, Furufumi talked to Mononobe about himself. He talked
about things he could never say to anyone, sad, frustrating things he
thought he’d never say to anyone again. But that time Furufumi started
struggling to voice what he wanted to say as he got agitated, and he sat
there shaking.
Mononobe told him it was
fine. He could just go at it a little bit at a time, whatever he could
manage. That first time you start to challenge yourself, even for a
little bit, is what we call courage.
Furufumi
narrates about how he had always thought of himself as surrounded by
enemies. He thought that the world he lived in was filled with hate,
fighting, and sadness. But then he started thinking. If there was just
one person who would get to know him, if he were to look up into the far
off distance, he could see a star shining. He thought of it as just
light, nothing to do with himself. So why is it that he could see it
shine differently? When Furufumi looked at what was always there since
he was born, he started to cry.
Flashback
ends and picks up with all the Shadow dragons appearing and facing
towards you guys in a straight line. You tell Furufumi to get back as
you cover him. You fight with a few of the dragons, and Furufumi says
the Shadows coming out of the book are memories of the past. He flips
through his own book for a second, then asks you to wait for a bit.
You’re
surprised by what he’s doing and ask about it. He says his book tells
him everything that’s happened in the past and future, then casts his
CS. After apparently analyzing whatever it is he’s just seen, he tells
you that these are your past memories. They are memories washed away by
the end of the world, memories that had happened once. In other words,
they are you yourself, parts that were of you before. He then specifies
they are your final memories from all the loops that occurred.
You
are either surprised that he knows about the loops or take notice of
his book of prophecy artifact. Either way he says he does, because
that’s what his artifact was made to do. Then he asks if you also know
that Tokyo has been repeatedly destroyed and made to repeat things.
Every time it came to it, people would forget, which would in the end
repeat the same ending.
Furufumi then says
that the library holds all the ends of the world within it. His artifact
is meant to pull them out, which is why he knows anything you guys do
is pointless. All possibilities have been tested, but the future refused to change ending never changed.
If
anyone were to know the futility of their own actions...Furufumi trails
off on that to say this is why he told you that you shouldn’t come
here. Knowing how and why you died is simply cruelty. If you didn’t know
you could live with hope through the endless repeats. Humans couldn’t
bear with it otherwise.
Furufumi then
suggests you guys retreat. You decide to ask why he guided you here if
what he said was true. He initially answers that it was the last thing
the teacher asked of him, but changes his answer to be because he’s the
manager of the place. It’s his responsibility to lead anyone who enters.
Having
said that, Furufumi says he can’t overlook things if they know there’s
danger involved. After a quick moment he then talks about how there are
things people don’t need to know about, things they’d be better off not
knowing. He calls that memory dangerous and says it’s an enemy that will
destroy you.
He tries again to ask you to
leave with him, but you instead thank him for worrying about you. You
lower your sword and start walking towards the dragons to his bewildered
shock. You then say you won’t run because you came here to know all
that.
As you extend your hand out to the
dragons, they respond in kind and extend their arms out as well. You and
them overlap, and you say it was like That Time. The only difference is
that instead of a shadow overlaying with your sword, they now overlay
with your own body.
Furufumi calls out to
you, and you wince. You say you remember this pressure, this rampage.
It’s the rampage of a power, just like all the other Exception
incidents. Your whole body “remembers” the pain that feels like it would
split you apart, and someone yells. The yell comes from within your
head, your chest, your soul.
Furufumi’s
prophecy book starts reacting to this, opening page after page of that
screaming, filled with details of the pain and suffering you felt when
you and your selves died. The accumulated karma is filled with memories,
and you body feels the reaction to your fate all over. All the old
wounds from the past open up on you as if your whole being remembers.
You
say this must be what Oniwaka and the others have gone through, and
Furufumi says this is why he said a single person cannot carry the
weight of accumulated history. You however say you’re okay and smile at
him, to his confusion.
You think about how
you could never have done this if this had been done when you had first
come over to this world. But you have met many people and have been
taught many things. Now you can say that this is not a curse. You have
not been made to carry the past, and the pain you feel is not your
present state. It is only an old memory, not something that harms you.
You
know that you are able to believe that it is so. And since you know it,
you are able to believe in it. History is nothing more than something
that can tell you of an end someone who isn’t you reached, an end you
might reach yourself. That someone is showing you how they lived and
died, and in doing so tell you to take another path.
That
alone might not be enough, but that’s where the advice Azathoth’s
memory fragment gave comes in. There are those who have left Tokyo after
fulfilling their wishes. There are those who have taught you that the
end can change. That is why you have conviction. And the only one who
controls yourself is you alone.
No matter
how many different selves there are in you, there is only one of your
self. So if you can believe in yourself...if you can believe from the
bottom of your heart that you decide your path...if you can believe that
you are your own ally from the bottom of your heart...
Scene
switches to narration by Solomon. Whenever you go into a battle, a wall
appears between you and him. It is a wall with the same pattern on that
ring, carved with two triangles. That wall is what protects him, though
there have been times when someone has managed to touch him from the
other side he says, as Snow, Ded, and Musashi flash by in silhouette.
Solomon
says it was painful and terrifying and talks about how he shivered in
fear as he hid. He admits he wasn’t any help. He can’t do anything for
you in battle, and he’s pretty much useless in the other world. He just
cheers for you before battles start and sneaks back out when it’s done.
Yet
even so, Solomon kept telling himself that he was your best butler to
distract himself. But then there was that time where you asked “just
what are you?” Solomon would like to know that himself. When you had
asked him that, he became fearful because he didn’t know the answer.
Mononobe has told he was a demon dragon, but that had no meaning to him.
Solomon
says again that he is your butler. But if he can’t be any help to you
and can’t even be trusted by you...what is he really? He wonders if he
really couldn’t do anything for you from the start.
Solomon’s
narration ends there as regular narration picks back up, saying that
was a memory fragment that flew through your body. One was the young
form of Yoshitsune, the exile of Wa no Kuni who disappeared in flames.
One was the young form of Eurynome, the exile of Olympus who disappeared
into the deep blue sea. One was the young form of Susanoo, the exile of
Takamagahara who disappeared into the ends of the far off plateau. One
was the young form of Shaitan, the exile of Eden who disappeared into
the furthest reaches of the distant sky. And one was the unnamed exile
of Old Ones, who disappeared beneath the earth to the deepest depths of
the underworld.
There are other countless
innumerable Shadows there. They carried the belief of their home worlds
and disappeared from there. They are the 23 dragons cast out from their
worlds into isolation. As you start to address them, you start to see
the form of one dragon, past the wall where the many shadows have
gathered.
You apologize for the wait and
say you came to see him, even as you drag yourself forward feeling like
you could split apart at any moment. The shadows fill your vision and
cloud all you see in darkness, and you hear someone crying.
You
call to Solomon. He is there on the other side of the wall, in the
middle of the storm that would violently tear you to pieces. Furufumi is
shocked that you guys are somehow in space or something else, while
Solomon continues crying to himself. He sits there, alone amongst the
infinite stars. There, in the hell that devastates faith and burns away
light.
Seeing Solomon holding his knees to
himself and shaking brings some memory back to Furufumi. You say you are
the same as you think back to that day. That was the day Solomon came
to see you when you were all alone. And yet, despite that...you forgot
about it. You didn’t try to remember, even though you should have
remembered.
You apologize for being late,
say you came to see him this time, and admit you made him wait a while.
Solomon hears you this time, cowering in shock. He calls to you, and you
answer back, asking him to come back with you. Solomon reluctantly says
he can’t, saying he isn’t any help and can’t even be trusted. You tell
him he’s mistaken and apologize.
You tell
him that it isn’t that you know someone that you believe in them. It is
because you want to believe in them that you know them. That was what
you were taught, that is what you remembered. It was what many people
taught you.
Musashi, Hephaestus, and
Azathoth flit through your thoughts, and then you say you two should go
learn about yourselves together. You tell him that you want to believe
in him. Solomon timidly extends his own shaking hand toward you, and
finally the two of you make contact, like you’re gently holding hands.
And for the first time, your sword hand holds the ring. And so you two
hold hands, not to become as one but to stay as two.
Light
starts spilling out, and Furufumi starts calling out to Mononobe. As he
watches things unfold he remembers that day he was surrounded by stars.
Flashback pops up to repeat what Mononobe said about how it’s okay to
do things a little bit at a time and the bit about courage. It then
extends things a bit further, with Mononobe saying deciding things is
about what you believe in. It’s his opinion that you learn things
because you want to believe.
Back to the
present, the wall between you and Solomon has disappeared at some point.
Narration compares it to a sugar sculpture melting away, and Solomon
cries as he flies to you. You let him hug you and/or hug him back
yourself. He babbles about how he had always... you cut across him to
say you guys should go together to learn things together and say you’ll
be counting on him. He readily agrees.
On
the other side of Solomon, someone’s shadow wavers. Many shadows
actually, at least twenty of them. You talk to the silhouettes, saying
they were there inside Solomon and always waiting for you guys. As you
and Solomon look at them, Furufumi feels like they are smiling. You tell
the shadows you want to know about them too, step by step.
The
shadows start gathering into you two, and light spills out again. When
it fades, the hexagram patterned ring shines in your hand. Furufumi’s
book reacts to his surprise, and when he opens it the last page that had
always been blank now has a new verse. He wonders if this means it’s
about something that has never happened in any of the loops so far. He
asks Mononobe if that’s what it means as a tear runs down his cheeks,
whispering the name of the teacher who is no longer there.
Elsewhere
in the school, Triton knocks on a door asking if Mononobe is in. Jinn
runs up saying he doesn’t seem to be where he was just at either. Triton
has a lot of things to ask him about, but wonders where he could
possibly have gone at this time of night. And so Chapter 9: System of
Karma ends.
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